HI. i just woke up. it is 1:46. I haven't slept in for forever so that was amazing. i know i just wasted a lot of the day but it was worth it. Have a pretty huge headache still... i thought i'd sleep it off but i guess not. chillin it with maria and brittany last night and we couldn't find anything to do. there were lots of stupid parties that we didn't want to go to because we're lazy so we thought we'd bring the party to us. And came it did. just kidding, it was chillin. i guess there were like 25ish folks. I made the horrible mistake of finally opening the mickey of SHIT i got in Cyprus. I have no idea what it was but it smelt/tasted like a mix of tequila, wine, vodka and SHIT. everyone was like what the hell is that crap we can smell it from across the room! it really was the sickest thing ever. just thinking about it sends chills up my spine. EW. anyways it's done now so i never have to think about it/smell it again.


anyways worst/funniest thing ever happened and i'm scarred for the rest of my life. my brother came home with a girl and all the guys thought it would be funny to break in and take a picture. and, well they did. and well...... yea it was SICK. that picture got passed around the room the whole night and as soon as someone new came thats the first thing they saw. if i wasn't drunk when i saw it I probably would have thrown up. literally. ok i can't talk about it anymore more it keeps flashing into my brain. anyways he snuck her out the back because she was too embarrassed. oh man....


Soccer party tonight. i'm excited because there's free food. shower time.

bare with me here i'm going to complian a little bit...the last couple of days i've felt like sick city. it's not even sick, it's just super weak and crazy sharp pains in my head that make me want to cry. i worked all day feeling crappy and my body was like jello. you know that feeling when you wake up after sleeping in for a really long time and your body feels really distant and making a tight fist is virtually impossible? yea like that. also it rained all morning and later morning... and i was outside crouching under a raincoat that isn't waterproof, picking weeds out of the ground. I did that for 8 hours straight and my fingers have become completely numb. if fingers could cry, mine would be crying right now. and probably screaming too, because if they could cry, chances are they could scream.... anyways.


Leck's in Vancouver today/tonight so hopefully his ferry doesn't sink! i'm going to head to the gym in a bit, meet up with maria and brittany, and hopefully be home before 9 so i can go to bed. not much sleep was had last night. i think it was a full moon or something.

Saw the DaVinci Code yesterday with Leck. It was pretty intense. it followed the book fairly accurately and they changed the ending a bit, which made more sense than the book anyways. The line up to get tickets were out the door and down the stairs... appearently it was for XMen. COOL! not. god what a joke. who would go see that. i saw one of them and it was a pretty painful experience.


Jack Black was on Ellen the other day. how funny is he. I was listening to Tenacious D a lot today.
tribute, wonderboy and fuck her gently are the best.


This is a song for the ladies
But fellas listen closely
You don't always have to fuck her hard
In fact sometimes that's not right to do
Sometimes you've got to make some love
And fuckin give her some smoochies too
Sometimes ya got to squeeze
Sometimes you've got to say please
Sometime you've got to say hey
I'm gonna Fuck you softly
I'm gonna screw you gently
I'm gonna hump you sweetly
I'm gonna ball you discreetly
And then you say hey I bought you flowers
And then you say wait a minute sally
I think I got somethin in my teeth
Could you get it out for me
That's fuckin teamwork
Whats your favorite posish?
That's cool with me
Its not my favorite
But I'll do it for you
Whats your favorite dish?
Im not gonna cook it
But ill order it from Zanzibar
And then I'm gonna love you completely
And then I'll fuckin fuck you discreetly
And then I'll fucking bone you completely
But then I'm gonna fuck you hard
Hard

classic.

Have I ever actually introduced myself? I don't know, but it's post number 273 so I thought maybe I will do that now and get it out of the way...


Well my name is caitlin, and I'm 18 years old. And I would say that I am not an alcoholic. My parents raised me to be polite, thankful and socially awkward. Or maybe that was just me. I have a brother who is 16, and my parents blame me for making him an "angry person". I have a boyfriend who I met through this blog here. His real name is mostly unknown in the blogging community because of job related reasons. He is the best part of my life. By far. I'm graduating highschool in almost exactly three weeks time. After that I will be free and happy. The summer will be the best yet. Camping trips, tofino, lakes, beaches, sun and the trip to Europe. My favorite foods are definitely the kind that are very satisfying and artery-blocking. But who's aren't? I think pizza is pretty high on that list of food that is good. I like most music, favorites being Tegan and Sara, Matthew Good, Tiesto et cetera. I have two cats. One who is slowly losing control of his bodily functions and the other who still thinks she's a kitten. Favorite TV shows include, The Office, Survivor, Amazing Race, House, and the Apprentice. A reality TV buff appearently. Favorite Movies include, Garden State, Jerry Maguire, Closer, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, You've Got Mail, Proof of Life and When Harry Met Sally. Secretly or not so secretly I'm a pretty big nerd. I'm in a computer programming class where I feel right at home. My friends make fun of me but I bet they don't have the stellar programming skills i do. I have a weird thing about organization... things have to be perfectly planned, ie a busy day is scheduled into my phone pretty much down to the minute. I get really excited about things really easily, especially small things that don't really matter. I cry easier than most people I know. I cry in most movies, including School of Rock... so I don't know what's up there... I don't like wearing socks. Feet should be free. Another reason I'm looking forward to the summer. I don't hate anyone. Hate is a strong word. When I use the word hate, it's usually in the heat of the moment and isn't meant. Although, saying I really really don't like Bush is an undersatement, so i suppose i can use it in this case. Moving on... I work at a garden nursery. I have for 2.16 years now, and August 15th will be my official last paycheque. It will be a sad day but it's time to move on. I've travelled quite a bit, a lot when I was younger which is too bad because I would have appreciated it a lot more now. I lived in Switzerland for 3 months when I was in grade 3. I have relatives in Scotland and have been over there about 7 times now. I miss it. When I was in grade 2 I stole a pack of gum when I was trick or treating and I didn't sleep for 3 nights. I told my dad and then i could sleep. My halloween costumes have always been very different and of course home-made. Weirdest would have to be a table... complete with cups, plates, cookies, and my head was in the middle under a tea cosy. One year me and Jess were siamese twin devils. we couldn't just be siamese twins, or just devils, no, apperantly we had to be both. it was weird. I had three frogs, Frank, Murphy and Phoebe. Phoebe killed herself and we let Frank and Murphy go in a forest to mourne her untimely death. I had a bunny named Hershey who hated humans. Probably because i tried to put her on a leash a lot. My neighbors dog ate her. My first kiss was with a girl when i was in grade 2. In elementary school I would wear tracksuits and purple tights. Sometimes overalls. I had this one tracksuit that was my favorite. It was blue and yellow and said Nike on the back. Last month I saw an old man wearing the same one downtown. I've never met anyone famous. One time Steve Nash was playing soccer in the field next to the one I was palying in and after I waved to him and he waved and smiled. I told my tennis instructer the story and I was all excited. He told me he was working out in the gym wearing a Steve Nash jersey and Steve comes in to the same gym to work out and they talked for 20 minutes and he signed a bunch of shit. Way to shoot down my story you asshole. Pet Peeves= really slow drivers on narrow roads, leaving messages on answering machines, drama, 13, 14, 15, 16 year old girls, waking up early, things that waste my time and loud noises. I had braces in grade 8. Sometimes I wear a retainer when I sleep because my teeth are bad. My dentist is a pervert and I avoid going at all costs. I'm really bad at meeting new people. Sometimes i'm shy. Sometimes I'm really outgoing. I dont know. One of my main character flaws is indecisiveness. I'm really really horrible at making decisions. Wether it be ice cream flavour, what meal at macdonalds to get (that's one of the worst... Quarter pounder?! McChicken!? McNuggets!? I never know!!!!), what to do tonight, what kind of coffee, what to eat for lunch, what to wear, what to say... I hate watching old home movies because I see how crazy I actually was. I was a weird kid, that's for sure. I've played a lot of sports in my life. Starting soccer in preschool and finishing this year. I played, Baseball, Rugby, Tennis, Volleyball, Basketball and did karate for 5 years. I had a blue-stripe. why didn't I just finish and get my black? I wish I had more motivation. I start things I don't finish... I got pretty decent at guitar for a short period of time then gave up. My bass has lain unused for months collecting dust and it makes me sad. I wish I could just stick with something. I want to learn how to actually surf and get way better at snowboarding. weirdest place i've had sex, i guess that would be on the snowboard bus back from the mountain. Favorite actors, Will Farrell, Meg Ryan, Steve Carell, Vince Vaughn and Zach Braff. Best song ever, Hurricane, Bob Dylan. I have a blog because sometimes I get bored and it entertains me. In the near future I'll be getting a new one, that I wont tell anyone I know about, minus Leck and Peter. Some of my friends read it and I deffinitely don't like it. It would probably be a good place for them to see what i've been up to after grad... but if they really want to know they can call me up. This world keeps getting less and less personal.

alrighty well the long weekend's over and I had a pretty sweet one. haven't really been on the computer lately hence the lack of updates. um since i'm feeling a little tired and also feel like doing a su doku i'll just do a brief overview.


worked on friday, chilled with some girls, ate some good food, drank some beers at some party, got really tired really fast and called it quits. had a bad sleep and sketch dreams then went to work on saturday. i was so tired on saturday and i brought a big bag of chocolate covered coffee beans to keep me awake. probably a bad idea because they made me really shaky and sketchy. so good though.


Work went extremely fast up untill about 3:30 then it just dragged. i hate that. met up with leck boy. we rolled on over to Saltspring island for some camping fun times. we caught the 9 so it was dark when we got there. decided to screw a campsite and save money so we chilled on the side of a sweet road by the lake/ actually ocean.

saw some sweet band playing in Ganges, so chillin over there I love it so much, everything is so perfect. like everything! it's the best place ever and its so flippin pretty.

woke uppppppp went for some breakfast in ganges. had to put up with shitty service from a gay guy because he was jealous leck had a girlfriend. chilled in a park, watched some hippies, got jealous of how layed back everyone is there, tried to rent some scooters but they were gone, bought some alcoholic beverages + some blue raspberry martini mix, drove to saint mary's lake, drank sour vodka 7 up raspberry drinks, went swimming in the freezing lake despite the grey clouds, saw some people we knew, but called them by the wrong name, went back to ganges, waited for the ferry, it was pouring, drank some lemon grass tea, ate more kettle chips, listened to some RHCP/MG...


um went back to lecks, drank some more, watched ali g/trailer park boys. woke up, went for coffee downstairs, tried to do a crossword but kind of failed. watched kids, talked about scooters and couches went to whitespot then missioned to Sidney to buy things. ie, wax, car fresheners, books (jPod for leck, Jesus Papers for the dad.), 7 layer dip and a 6 pack of guinness for the dad from leckkk. went back to my place, said happy birthday to the dad, made him a card, kind of watched pirates of the carribbean, ate 7 layer dip and wings and cake and other stuff and then watched the apprentice and deal or no deal WOOHAAH.

oh ps. from now on, on the blog i'm going to write WAY too much detail, make run on sentances and probably lose all readers. starting with this post! JAWSOME. OK folks well have a good night, i know i will because i'm going to sleep and thats a pretty exciting concept for me right now.

what i would really like to do now is describe this pain i'm having in my side but i just can't think of the right words. oh i also have pins and needles in my right foot. ok so the amazing race finale was tonight and it was toally intense at the end there. thank god the hippies won though, i was happy about that one. Leck and i looked up scooters today and financing and stuff and as soon as i get a full time job/move out that's the first thing i'm doing. getting a scooter. ive had enough of these gas prices screwing me over. the amount in gas i'd save pretty much just pays for the bike.

I just created a new account on my computer called "caitlin" because it's for me. normally i was just under my dad's but it's all cramped and shitty and also msn didn't work so for the last year i've had to download msn everytime i wanted to go on it. LAME. goddamnnnnn. anyways got the new account, and msn actually works on this one! yesssss.

i'm only writing this because i'm trying to transfer my music folder over to this account and it seems to be taking it's sweet time. also Leck made me feel guilty for not saying anything about the postcard i got from Smelly, which i was planning on doing in my next post, which turns out to be this one... sooo.... Thanks for the postcard Smelly!!!! I'm glad you had an awsome time over there!!! wooohaa

tomorrow is going to be fantastic. I don't work and since i get really excited about the days i don't work i plan them out completely the day before. 8:15- coffee with meghan. 10:00 show up to school. 1:30 leave school and go tanning. 2:00 go to Shoppers and buy things. 2:30 go to Avalon. 3:00 go home, finish comp civ project. 3:45 do Meghan's scrapbook. 4:15 nap untill 5:30. 6:30 doctors appointment. 7:00ish on chill it with leck dawgggg. coool.

effff this music is taking so long to load and all i want to do is sleep! my eyes sting. maybes i'll just leave the computer on all nigt. ok sounds good. peace out.

ps sorry i have no pictures i never bring my camera anywhere because it's heavy/not really

got an acceptance package today from the university of Victoria. which is really weird because i'm not planning on going, but i've been accepted starting in the winter for the faculty of Social Sciences. hmmmmmmmmmmm

also just watched Grey's Anatomy and i was freaking out/crying and it was so good. part 2 of the season finale tonight! 2 hours! (i'm taping it)

ok this is the next day now, i never have time to finish these things..... anyways, just got home from work, just got another burn. my burns are piling up, i keep getting burns on top of burns on top of burns all with different tanlines so my back looks pretty confused right now. summer's going to be harsh out in the full sun all day. Hank the delivery guy was dying of heat in his truck so he came over where i was watering and he stuck his head under the hose. i just sprayed my arms cause i'm sure the customers wouldn't appreciate me trying to help them all wet and dripping.

leck's coming over in 5 minutes and we're going swimming. don't know where yet but i'm stoked.


Today pretty much cemented the fact that i hate highschool and all the bullshit people that come with it. i'm so tired of immature people who just try to cause problems, and thrive off of them. i really don't like confrontations or arguments or anything like that so i try to avoid them all, which may make me a pushover but i can deal with that. i hate how people try to feed me their shit and expect me to be like ok yea whatever and just go with it. UHGGG! i want to go on but lecks here so i'll leave it at that for now. time to swim.

my head is pounding and the pain is too much for me right now. its making my eyes squint and my nose crunch. it's 25 degrees out and its not helping my headache/all around sick feeling. i just worked 6 days in a row and today is my day off then i work again... so i was planning on having a restful afternoon, maybe watching the greys anatomy we taped last night, (i heard it was intense), but instead i had to get some things done. now there's not even enough time for a nap.


The weekend was a pretty lazy one, other than working friday saturday sunday. chilled with Jess on friday, went to some gay party for a bit then peaced. i have a story about porn from that night but i'll save it because i dont want to type.

Rented the Island with Leck on saturday, fell asleep, woke up, got some bagels and coffee before i had to work. worked. leck came over and we watched the survivor finale with the parents. SURVIVOR woooooo. aw it's over. sad :( next one starts in the fall. fuuuck yea. Shane is crazy and amazing and every time he does that "I JUST WANT MINE" thing and like gets all weak and collapses his head/arms i cry laugh. + i love Cirie because she's so cute and funny and laughs all the time. COOL!

ok theres going to be no tv pretty much after next week. probably a good thing. its almost summer anyways so who needs tv?

I'm getting sick and it really sucks because the weather's starting to get nice again. I took Cold fx this morning but i was too lazy to get a cup so i used my hands as a cup. ( which is really difficult to do btw, put a pill in your mouth with hands that are holding water...) anyways, there wasn't enough water in my hands and the pill got stuck halfway down my throat. really painful experience. i was still too lazy to get a cup. so i had a shower and tried to drink the shower water. that kind of worked.


Work today couldn't have felt longer and the weather couldn't have been sketchier. crazy black clouds that wouldn't rain, sunny clear skies that would rain... + it was freezing then boiling. lame.

i get so pissed off in computer programming class every day because my code always fucks up and decides not to work, or does something stupid, and i feel like one of those crazy guys that gets monitor burn from staring at the screen too long and goes crazy/explodes. yea u know those guys,,..,.,,. .. .....

There are F18's at the airport right now. they've been here like a week and theyre crazy loud. they fly over my work all day and like dive and do tricks. it's intense. there are like 20 cars lined up on the side of the road pretty much most of the day. people have lawn chairs, umbrellas... they're sitting on the top of their vans and in the back of their trucks... its like a huge event or something. i don't know maybe people are just bored. one did a crazy dive toward the airport then came up right over my work and i could see the people inside. i was jealous. how fun would that be. fun

heyheyheyy! hey. its late and i want to sleep but also i dont. i'm eating twiglets, that my mom brought home from scotland. theyre pretty much my favorite. most people hate them. theyre like sticks, covered in marmite. mmm i know. i feel like being creative right now, but its too late to do anything but maybe dream creative thoughts.

this lady/teacher from india came to our global awareness group today, she had just come from washington and she said the biggest difference between Canadians and Americans that she saw was that Americans didn't know anything about the rest of the world. and then she's like, i dont think they even know anything about their own country. i laughed. she was cute.


i have to work more this week because my boss freaks out if more than 3 people are at the nursery at one time. sooo i'll be working, tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday sunday. jawsome.
yo well my eyes are half closed and stinging of tired.

oh yea and i'll make my blog better so you guys don't hate it. and dont say you dont!@dfsfee(&^wkhii

I'm having the worst stomach pain right now. i wish i could puke and make it better but it's not really that kind of hurt. wtfuck. but anyways, my weekend was pretty rad. Leck and I saw Mission Impossible 3 on friday. so intense!!

the horrible farmers tan has begun. so has the complete disregard for this blog and its content. I can see this thing slowly spiraling away into the blogosphere where no one will read it because it hasnt been updated in months. butttt I don't think i'll let that happen. this blog has been good to me, so i should be good back.

yesterday was craaaazy hot out. i was wearing shorts and a t-shirt at work and I was dying of heat. i had to hide in the shade the whole time. I put together this well thing using bolts and screws etc, it took me forever, then i noticed the roof part had hella scratches, so i showed my boss and she told me to take it all apart and we'd take it back. fuck! what a waste of time.

I went to the dentist today. I really hate the dentist. the guy I go to is creepy and really violent and lame. Today wasn't too bad, i've had worse experiences. they gave me a toothbrush.

I was just looking out my window at the backyard and for some reason started thinking about this shrew thing that bit me. Probably back in grade four I was chillin behind this garden and i saw a mouse thing, and i wanted to keep it, and because i was an idiot child, i tried to pick it up but it lached onto my finger with its teeth. I was screaming and my friend Beki was jumping on the trampoline ignoring me. i shook it really hard but it wouldnt come off, then it flung onto the grass and my cat caught it and brought it to the front yard. hurt like a little bitch. later that day we found some bones and organs in the driveway. mmm. i knew people would think i was stupid for picking it up, so i told them i thought it was a cat toy. awsome story. (no)