it's not even that the job is that bad... It's like school but I'm getting payed for it. I drink coffee in the dark on the way to work and get to watch the sunrise on a parkade from the window of my second floor classroom.

i don't know what's giving me this stressed/uneasy feeling in my stomach. yes i have a job, but i want a better one. is there ever going to be a good enough job? maybe. not anytime soon.

I think i did this all wrong... I think i was supposed to save up money, then go to school like the rest of my friends, then eventually work towards a job i will be happy in. and yes i know i'm 18, but i feel like i'm wasting a year working a shitty job/ multiple shitty jobs that aren't really getting me anywhere.

i need to get up at 5:30 tomorrow so i'm already up too late. sleep tight. i'll try too.